I never realized what a toll that writing would take on me mentally. I am currently working on two stories and some assorted poetry. It takes an emotional drain, that's for sure. I have bared my soul in some of the pages and recollected a lot of feelings and events that I never thought would rise to the surface. I have also had to do a lot of soul-searching on my writing journey. It has forced me to come to accept a lot of things about myself. It has been cathartic, to say the least. I am so grateful for the support I've gotten during this time as I have been taking a lot of time to reflect on my personal life. I have been taking more moments of solitude than I thought I would need and it's to the detriment of the life that continues around me. Some of the greatest writers of our age were off their rockers, Sylvia Plath, Stephen King, (With all due respect!),etc. At least I know that I fit in some capacity when it comes to my mental state. I have had to dig deep beneath my roots to pull out all these feelings, just bleeding it out onto the paper. I don't know if it is a structural or an accurate way of writing but, I don't really have outlines. I have not been planning the fate of characters, I have just been writing things down as they come to me. I have always been of the spontaneous spirit, impulsive, compulsive, and obsessive. I hope that whenever I do finally open myself up to the world with my writing, that it can have some sort of positive impact. The subject matter is very intense, but I wouldn't be who I am if I produced anything less than that. My writing is also not for the small-minded, it takes a lot of acceptance and also some grit to get through these pages forthcoming. I know, I've had to read and re-read these pages over and over, editing, rewriting, scrapping, and chucking a lot too. This is definitely an experience. 

Writing more than just sex scenes can be difficult!

Female Protagonist has a psycho ex-boyfriend and was just in a car accident. :o

   I hate having to throw the wrenches in there, but I need the story to progress.
It can't all be just word porn, unfortunately. But I am building stories that I'm proud to call my own. I just love the writing process. I'm becoming more familiar with some structural stuff and I have a bit of editing to do before I'm ready to test run anything. I hope I can say "I'm finished" maybe a month or two from now. Honestly, I'm not sure where my characters are headed. I'm writing as I go. This is all spur-of-the-moment writing, it's what I do best. Like my manic episodes, it's impulsive, obsessive, sleep-disturbing, compulsive writing. I do my research too. I just love the positive and cathartic outlet that writing has given me. I hope that whatever happens, at least I can say I tried.

Writing Update

I currently have two works in progress.

One story is 10 pages long so far and has a count of 14,591 words.

The other is 119 pages long and has a count of 60,417 words.

I'm not sure if I get any visits on my blog but to those of you who stumble upon it, I'm making progress. 😊